The manifesto

its no lie, ive fallen for you so hard ive broken every bone in my body

im so addicted to how easily you seem to ease the pain at the touch of your hand

but i heard, youre run down over and out

another casualty at the scene of the crash

but im here to help.

ill be your superman and your kryptonite

I always wished the world was flat so i could go to the edge and back.

a decade gone. when i say it like that it really makes my head spin. new years was always a chore to me. and i never liked countdowns as they remind me of the time left for me. it was weird- even though you werent there you were who i thought of when we all said "happy new year" and i hate myself for it. screw you, me, us all.
the only kiss i got was on the cheek from my best friend.
lovelovelove of the strictly platonic kind.

also, "failsafe". hah more like idiot safe. how come im the stupid one who presses the big red button right after everyone tells me not to? stereotyping me into a cliche action movie.
oh puhlease. schwarzenegger got it better.

HandOverFist

(when i figure out what that means ill let you know)

Merry christmas.
i wrote this for you sometime between sunset and sunrise. so obviously its just stupid rantings. whatever. based on a dream i had too long ago to recite.

"I wish i could box you up under my tree
I wish 11:11 wishes worked on me
I wish the Tooth Fairy was real
But instead the Easter bunny cut me a deal
So now its coffee, cake, and his obituary
6 feet deep with his old pal Jiminy
Always with concience but without concious
He said im the love child of blasphemy and love loss..."

ill finish it one day. promise.

this is mutiny to the tune of you pleading the fifth

bobs yr uncle
death is mine
we shook hands
first name basis
and dared each other to write till we get
rings around our eyes
rings around our fingers
or
wrings around our necks

9 to 5s in the 'burbs

letters to who you love the most
unmailed postcards sent anywhere but here
dreaming of someplace greater
(and) even crueler than sibling rivalry
sworn enemies over your backyard fence
never knew any better
its always same shit, different DJ
repeat to repent and repeat
Groundhog Day with no symptoms
another sick-minded shadow of yours
so you go play the game to homemade rules
hidden aces arent allowed and we dont play for keeps
and hearts belong in (bird/rib)cages but are always sewn on your sleeves

stitch me up.
my love for yours.

DEAR YOU

i found another world. losers delight, they call it. they tell me its made of loosecannons and foolprooffools. liars. well i think i belong here. its not too shoddy. i think ill cut my teeth on it then keep it in my back pocket for rainy days.
yummy

Thnks Fr Th Fsh.

im slip-slip-slipping
on the ice on your hips
theres no friction between us
but i thought you would have figured that out by now
i gave you too much credit
"never bite the hand that feeds you or you starve tonight"
you carved on the backs of your hands, the mirrors, the walls
so determind to forget their lies, you strain to remember your own
truths
you keep a constant tally of all the times youve fucked up
but its funny how you only bruise your wrists
coz youre too chickenshit to take it up a notch
i was drawn in by the way you hang your head at the sight of me
im more than a failure because you want me this way
well guess what?
im not afraid of losing you like i was once upon a time
ill put you up on the bandwagon with mothballs and cliche
see you off into the distance